The quote above completely resonates with me especially since I have been feeling down on myself and somewhat discouraged. It is a beautiful reminder that change takes time, but it is worth-it. I am trying to transform and evolve into the BEST version of myself. I can’t expect it to happen overnight or even in 1 months’ time. And once I have made these changes I want them to last. Why rush something that I hope will last forever?… I feel that about my relationships too. In my past, I used to want to spend as much time as I could with my boyfriend and I would freak out or worry that something was wrong if we didn’t talk for awhile even when I knew we were busy. I did not like how it made me feel clingy and desperate to please.
A year ago we went our separate ways… The time away helped me put things in perspective and in that time I started taking better care of myself and facing my fears. It was in those months away that I had a workout buddy and started working out in the gym 3 times a week for the first time in my life. I continued that habit until my bosses at my old job cut my lunch break in half (which turned my life upside down)… Anyways, it was in that time that I learned that I was capable of pushing myself in the gym (even though it was not comfortable), being consistent, and reaping the reward of great results!
Then one day, Christopher and I got back in touch and we have grown closer ever since. He understands me, but discourages me from feeling sorry for myself while encouraging me to learn and grow. I feel blessed that we found each other. It has been a challenging journey. As a result of my abusive history and failed past relationships, I admit that I do still have my struggles with self-esteem and it is hard for me to trust, but I am learning. I want us to have a healthy relationship so I have learned that us having space to have our lives is important and healthy. Then when we come together we are both happy and full…
Alright, that was quite the tangent… On another note…
This morning I let myself sleep in that extra half hour so I did not get to begin with Pilates, but I think I needed the rest. I have been pretty stressed lately so I am overjoyed that the weekend is swiftly approaching. ONE MORE DAY!!!
Overall today was a good day. My stomach still felt a little unsettled today, but it wasn’t as bad as yesterday. I brought just plain green tea so maybe the new tea that I was trying was a factor. I also have a feeling that stress has played a role, but I feel like I will come out on the other side of my stresses soon and exercise is definitely helping me to keep my sanity. It is my “me time.” Time that I am beginning to cherish. There was a time a couple of years ago when I was so uncomfortable being alone… I think it was because I was alone with my issues and it was scary. I feel blessed that I have grown from that place and can now value my alone time and spend it being productive.
I guess I am not truly alone because I usually do a group class. Tonight I chose Rizzmic! It was a smaller class and I enjoy that because there is lots of space to spread out and move about! I arrived at the gym with enough time to workout beforehand, but I ended up having a heart-to heart phone conversation with Christopher so I had to be efficient with the final half hour because closing.
Tonight’s Workout of the Day: Booty + Sit-ups
I decided to play around with the Bosu ball a little!
- 25 Medicine ball squats
- 15 Lunges with back foot centered on Bosu Ball (work both sides!)
- 15 Side-Lunges (lean towards the foot that is standing on the bosu)
- 15 Booty lifts
- 15 Hamstring pulses
- 15 Fire hydrants
- 25 Incline sit-ups
Do 2 Rounds!!!
Today’s Word of the Day Is:
- a rascal, rogue, or scamp
I just want to thank everyone who read my post from yesterday (and new readers too) and offered me your weightloss tips and kind words. It means a lot to me that you take time out of your day to read my workout and word of the day. I also really appreciate the advice.
Often times a journey (especially a weightloss journey) can be intimidating, overwhelming, and become discouraging. I know this from experience and from a past where I ended up getting so discouraged that I gave up. Your support, kind words, and encouragement really inspires me and motivates me to keep going!!!
On those days when I feel like skipping a workout or giving up I end up thinking twice and usually end up working out because I don’t want to miss out on writing another “workout and word of the day.”
Please let me know what I can do to support you through your journey! We are in this together and we can do it!!!
Love, Joy, and blessings Always,