I think that I have hit another slump, but it has a different feel to it… It feels like I have a bigger appetite and less motivation. I have also realized that potty-training my puppy was much easier when I was at home more often and my workouts at the gym pull me away from home… Maybe in the future I will start doing some at-home workouts.
In addition, I am a little discouraged because I am not as proficient as I would like to be with computers yet, but I also have been pulled in lots of directions. Still trying to find my balance. I know that there are phenomenal people out there who can do it all and balance school, work, family, life, workouts, and relationships. I really want to be one of those people. I know that I need to change my habits.
After work, all I want to do is come home and decompress/crash on the couch and watch netflix and feast on ice cream sandwiches… And I will be the 1st to admit that I have done exactly that on more than one occasion.
I really don’t like this “quarter-life crisis” business that keeps creeping up in my life. Just a feeling of inadequacy and that I should be more accomplished than I am. I had a breakthrough moment today as I was walking on the treadmill… These past few months I have been feeling like the fact that I am an adult is news to me. Where did that thought pattern even come from, and WHERE HAVE I BEEN?!?!?!
Then I realized that for the past at least 6 years, I have consistently worked in aquatics and in many ways it is a good 1st job for teenagers. I obviously had much more responsibility than most of the other employees, but a majority of my colleagues were under 19. Much of my subconscious focus has been on blending in and being young. A lot of people usually think that I am 21 or 22 and I have always taken that as a compliment. Or maybe it was just embarrassment that I am nearly 30 and still don’t have a grown-up job/career. I think that it is a fact that we become like the people that we surround ourselves with.
That was a breakthrough for me. No wonder it has been hard for me to feel like a full-grown adult. I have been around teenagers and my bosses at the time mainly worked with teenagers. It was a job and it helped me to pay my rent and get by.
Now I need to learn how to be an adult and get excited about my future. I am glad that I had those realizations today. Because I can do something about it.
All that talk about being lazy… After work I wanted to go home and veg, but instead, I went to the gym and walked on the treadmill at an incline for 53 minutes then ran for 7. It felt really good –minus the fact that I chose to wear shorts today and they felt a little too short for comfort and my legs were rubbing :). Oh well, I got through it!
Then I went home to relax and study then went back for a bootcamp class. I will try to record what I remember here goes!
Workout of the Day: Bootcamp Circuit
- Side Step-ups
- Lateral agility ladder steps
- Rear Lunge and Row
- Forward Lunge and Row
- Bent over Row
- Tricep Dips
- Tire Flips with a burpee
- Sled Push with tire
- Bosu Squats
- Bosu Bridge
- Bar Squat with overhead press
We did each exercise for a minute and between each circuit we did random exercises out of the following list.
- Heel Touches
- One-legged push ups
- Dive Bombers
- Diamond push-ups
This was a killer workout that was fun and full of so much variety!!! Give it a try and mix and match exercises. You will not be disappointed!!!! This was such an empowering workout and I worked up a good sweat!
After the workout I decided to bike on the Recumbent Stationary bike for 20 minutes.
Word of the Day:
a capella-adverb or adjective
- without instrumental accompaniment.
I never regret my workouts once their done! I am going to gnaw on that for awhile because it is good food for thought. I am still having cravings and my nutrition is not as clean as it once was, but it is all a work in progress.
I really don’t like being in this weird space that I am and I especially dislike feeling inadequate, but I am just going to keep going. No matter how tough it gets and how down I feel. I don’t have to allow myself to marinate in these negative thoughts and feelings. I want to rise above it all.
Goodnight my Dear Darling Friends! I hope you are doing well wherever you are.
Love, Joy, and Blessings Always,